Monday, September 20, 2004
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(25 jan 05) today, during lunch, as what henrietta was saying... "why? daydreaming ar?" indeed i was today.. i just cannot get over what i am feeling now.... i dunno.... but i am quite surprised that i can finish the whole bowl today... i expected myself not to have the appetite to finish it... sigh... not in the mood now... suddenly everything seems to turn the other way round.... kors no longer there to ask me how am i feeling, no support from them... not even a word of anything... i dunno.... last nite, i cried again... today... i feel like doing so once again... but only that... i dun have any more tears to settle.... i dunno... kor kor... where r u all once again???
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9/20/2004 02:20:00 PM
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Monday, September 13, 2004
:: really cannot sleep ::
a few hours earlier, at around 1 something am, i came online.. and found him there... true, the main reason i came online was him... just feel like talking to him and seeing his nick... then the first question is "yo, so late?" he also asked, cannot sleep huh? i did not answer his question at that time, just replied a hmm... coz acually i have just woken up... so naturally, wake up already how to sleep back? heart also not with the god of dreams.... but now, my answer to him if possible is yes, i really cannot sleep... though now is 3.01 am and that i have to wake up at 6 something later for sch.. but heart... once again is not with the god of dreams... just broke it all coz of curious... i have known it long ago that he had a gf... but the impact was not that great till today... his nick for today was.. i hat busy BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY end up sick+ tired.... this was ok... but the sentence after that was not... at least not for me...( ok, i promise. and u must slp early wor, dun make mi worry... ) see that? so with nicks like this, how can i be able to sleep? really... i used to tell myself... a kor is always a kor.. i even went to the extent to ask my di to tell me that... and he did so last nite, ( only to be seen when i woke up ) unfortunately, things dun work... so what should i do now? how i wish chye eng is here... not to tell me the way... but just to chat with me....
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9/13/2004 06:58:00 PM
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Tuesday, September 07, 2004
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upon reading back the history conversation and everything.... i find that for the past few weeks... i have sort of learnt... learn how to smile... haha... in a sense... also learn the fact that my kors are always right from the start... yeah... probably coz they really have more experience... and leant something real important.... time is definately running out.. and that all my friendz and korz are right to ask me to study from the start... especially him, with his " favourite" pharse of " better study harder" ... yeah... i know... those reading my blog now would definately say" then why are u still online and typing? my answer would be... i dunno? haha... just update it and i will study later... haha... k... i know... always still so " stubborn" dun want to listen advice... k... for once... u all win... will listen to ur advices... ( till the time my mood runs out ) haha... dun need to pray hard, coz i know it will run out soon? but hope not.... hahaz... k.... dun type liaoz... nitez and byez... haha
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9/07/2004 01:27:00 PM
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Thursday, September 02, 2004
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was reading my history conversation in which i had with someone.. and find it very ... urm... cartoon? haha... ask that person to block me but landed up chatting back a few days later in msn... same account.. not that the person did not block me.. in fact he did.. but just that i was too tempted to talk to him.. then landed up going to my the other account... talking to him... haha.. but here, i also realised, he really did put in effort in asking me to study.. so the question is... why am i still not studying? i know that not only him, there are also ppl out there who tried to ask me to study... even huimain.. but ....
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9/02/2004 05:56:00 PM
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:: slacking ::
i know when i put slacking.. there will be ppl out there wanna 2 kill me liaoz...prelims are so near still slack... i know .. i know... but.... anyway... today actually go to the sch libraray to study one.. but landed up me going to eldds... i know i have stepped down already.. but so happens that they are having their eldds meeting in the library.. so tempted to go to the eldds meeting that i landed up spending my time there... jia lat.,.. whatever... anyway... if guesses are right, most likely tml will have back my maths and history common test paper.. no need to see already.. both sure fail liaoz... coz maths.. even a simple class test also can fail till so bad, what makes me think that i can pass my common test.. also no need to see liaoz... fate sealed. for common test scores.
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9/02/2004 10:39:00 AM
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